A New Dilemma

Well, I was wrong. My piercing dilemma is not over. Well, actually it is over, because I've decided on it.

My manager called me today to confirm my schedule for the week. And then she tells me, the boss is not happy with the piercing. Still. Even with the clear plastic retainer. AND HR of the building, who technically own the coffee shop, are also opposed to metal through skin.

My manager put it that the more the boss thought about it the more it frustrated him. And that makes me wonder. If he gets frustrated over something this small... what else would he get upset over?

I've been going back and forth on this all day. I wonder if its worth working at a place where image is more important than qualifications (because I was assured, 'You could lose your job over this.'), I wonder if I'm putting too much stock into this piercing. Am I being too selfish in thinking I could leave a job to keep it? What if I only have this job for a short time (something that happened to a friend of mine) and then I'm left with a few bucks and no piercing? Why does it matter to me so much? Why does it matter to them so much?

But here's what my mind rested on. I'm pretty sure God lined this job up for me. It fell into place too easily, me being all too qualified, for all of this to be just chance. And I'm not even sure if its for the job, you know? I might just need to be there so I can meet someone, or have another opportunity. And then a thought occurred to me.

There is not much in my life that I have sacrificed for. In fact, I can't really think of anything I had to sacrificed. And it may not seem much to you, but I think this piercing means a lot to me. And giving it up for a minimum-wage job two days a week for maybe a promotion in the future, its a bit of a risk. Because I'm pretty sure I will never get it re-pierced. So here I am.

Mom gave an excellent suggestion. In Judges, Gideon asks God to give him a sign if he's doing the right thing. This isn't saving Israel, but... you know. So I have decided to take it out. I feel a little too dependent on it in the first place, but I'm going to let God decide. I will comply with my boss, and when I return from work tomorrow and I am able to simply put the piercing back in, I will know that God is letting me keep it. If there is no way that piercing is going back... then I guess I have to grow up, move on.

I'm not happy about it, but what sacrifice is?

Boy, that must sound pretty lame.