Get Up!

God is good. I... am lazy.

I have a lot of ideas in my head, its almost ready to explode. Some of them are attainable, I don't fret about them one bit. Others are fairly large, and I wonder if they'll ever come to fruition. But you know what I do with ALL of them? Nothing.

There in lies my greatest weakness: motivation. I have none, or too little to speak of. I have lots of ideas, but no fuel for the engine. And whose fault is that?

Mine. God's been quiet lately. I don't know what His plans are, but its been pretty frustrating. No leads, no confirmations, no good suggestions, nothing. Just me plodding away, ideas popping into my head, and wondering if anything will come of it. Tonight I asked God for a word, for anything. Then I went to meet a friend for dinner.

It was a good talk. I hadn't expected the conversation to go the path it did, but I'm glad. Instead of talking about how sorry I feel for myself, we talked about action. And that's what was always goading me; I never take action. We tried hashing out ideas for what I should do career-wise and all of a sudden God prompts me to talk about a musical idea I had four years ago. Four years ago. As I tell my friend about it, some of the scenes, how powerful the music can be, and how great it could be, he says one simple little sentence.

"So do it."

Its stupid how cloudy I can make my own vision. Its incredible how lazy I can be. And I think my lethargy springs from fear, not apathy. I'm not lazy because I just don't care, I'm afraid of the consequences. I put things off because of what might happen. What if I invest time and money and it fails? What if I get something good and no one wants to run it? And strangest of all, what if it succeeds? Then everything will change.

As we discussed this, I realized how unfounded these thoughts were, and with that simple phrase, so do it, I realized how much time I was wasting. Why do I put things off? And where in my brain did it ever occur that sitting around wondering if it will happen was a logical way to get it done?

I need to... just do it. So I will.
This idea is bigger, and will take a lot of work, but I believe it will bring God the most glory. And since its too big for me to accomplish on my own, I am confident that I will get to see God work.

So here we go...



... let's get to work.