Thanksgiving Thoughts

I was reading Oswald Chambers last night and I came upon a very well-thought out two sentences.

'Tis because I am ordinary
Thy ways so often look ordinary to me.

Also last night I had Men's group. I gotta tell you, I love Tuesdays now. Wayne came in and said, "This vessel's ready for some fillin'!" And he's exactly right. That is what those nights are for, rejuvenation. We decided that since this was the last time we would see each other until after Thanksgiving that we would say something we were thankful for.

Listening to those guys speak, it was so genuine. They were thankful for the greatest things on earth; God's never-ending Love, his faithfulness through all our downfalls, his salvation for wretched sinners. And they were thankful for the little things; hot water, a roof over our heads, food on the table, a job that puts it there, the fact that they could walk under their own power, the fact that they could tell their right hand from their left.

I was so blind. Kenny said that "You know when its God speaking." And I know when God speaks to me, because I feel like I'm going to throw up. He knows I won't just jump to it with a simple little word. He's gotta squeeze me until I'm so uncomfortable that I have to do what he wants or I'll be sick. Well, after each guy spoke, I felt sicker, and sicker. When we went to pray, I just had to cry out.

I was so blind. I've complained about my job, about being home, about being lonely, about not having enough money to really do anything. But look at what I have! I'm living in a wonderful home that has hot water, and heat, and food and pets and I'm not paying for it! I have two, TWO jobs that have been adequately paying my loans! The worse health issue I have is itchy skin! I can see, and hear, and taste, and talk, and think, and drive, and pray, and work, and sing! My parents not only love me, they are thankful I'm still home! I always think I'm a burden on them, but they ENJOY my company. I have so much family and we all, truly, love each other. And I have my pillars of men to support me, and grow me and love me and PRAY FOR ME.

I was so... blind. And I can't take that anymore. I need to see everything God does for me. My life could be so much harder, so much more desperate.

I'm sorry, Lord. 'Tis because I am so ordinary, Thy ways so often seem ordinary.



Happy Thanksgiving.